Hm.

I can't believe I dreamt about him last night.
Only it was who he used to be, what he used to look like.
I suppose that's what I get for wearing that hoodie to bed, right?

Dad bought me jewelry for my birthday.
Gold, because he feels that's what I prefer.
I don't.
But, let's be honest, I don't have the heart to tell him otherwise.
I'll wear it every time I'm not wearing black.
Since we all know silver is to be worn with black.

I've currently got 60 dollars burning a hole in my pocket.
But Mother won't take me anywhere.
Whatever.
That's fine. -.-

I haven't spoken to you in days.
Weeks, maybe.
I sort of miss you.
But at the same time, I don't.
Because I know you're two-faced.
There's nothing to tell you anyway.

Samantha is officially ignoring me.
That's fine.
Whatever.
She can do as she pleases.
She'll come crawling back when she decides she needs me again.
She always does.
Her life will crumble and I'll be here to hold the broken little pieces up.
Just like before.
-.-

I keep looking at the picture on my desk.
Deep in my mind, I keep wishing I looked like her.
And that I had a dress like that.
I told Mother.
She'd better make me one.

Take me for a ride, with your apologies.
Good way to put it, Young and Divine.
Which reminds me.
I've spoken to him.
I shouldn't have.
But I did.
As long as no one mentions is to Samantha or Khania, I'm good.
If I can help it, I won't talk to him again.

'When I was screaming 'I hate you', I didn't mean you.'
'Ohh'You never were a person of many words.
'Mhm. I'll leave you alone now. Bye.'
'Nooo'That makes me feel awkward.
'Uhm... Does that mean you actually want to talk to me?'
'Yes.'OhI'mSure.
'Okay. Then, Hello(:'
'Whats cracking'I feel that I should remind you of your race.
'Sitting on the playground at the school. And you?'
'At dustys'
'Oh. Okay.'

Sigh.
Raymond is such... I don't even know.
He's snobby.
Name brands.
Critisizing other's tastes.
It makes me wonder what he thinks of me.

I really want Half Baked Ice Cream.
But I know I can't have it.

'It's not like he's making you wear tham.'
'THANK GOD! But it would be embarrassing walking around with my brother and only hearing the clinking of his cowboy boots. I don't handle embarrassment well.'
NOT EVERYONE IS STUCK UP ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S INTERESTS!
'Okay. Just don't hang out with him.'

Why am I friends with such terrible people?

I'm going to go now.
Goodbye.