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I have a new theory.
My theory is that people stay with people who treat them badly or abusively because they're more afraid to be alone than with those people.

I want to go take pictures of the snow.
But I need a subject.
And I'm not sure Karen would let me take pictures of Paul playing in the snow.
He was crying when I went outside though.
So he might be going in soon anyway.
It's days like today that I wish I had a younger sibling.

I need to find someone who understand my position about Amanda getting married.
I told Cierra that I was a bit upset about the wedding and she jumped down my throat about it.
I thought she might get where I was coming from considering she's the youngest.
Apparently not.
When Amanda moves out, I'll be the only child in the house.
In fact, most of the time I'll be the only one home.
I won't have anyone to take me places.
No one to play board games until 3 in the morning with.
No one to teach me drinking games.
No one to drive to Bloom late at night to pick up ice cream and a movie with.
No one to to hang out with when all my friends have plans.
What am I going to do without her?
Cierra said that soon we'll be able to drive and her and Danielle would be here to bother me all the time.
I said that they weren't Amanda and she got all offended.
I've come to the conclusion that most likely, no one will understand how close Amanda and I actually are.
No one will understand how much I'll miss her.
And it's not like she'll be moving down the street, or even an hour away like Serena did.
No.
She'll be going to Norfolk.
Because that's where Brian is stationed.
I have never wanted to go to Christopher Newport so badly.

I don't know what else to ramble about.
Goodbye.
I'm going to take pictures of the snow.