Storms.

How fitting that it's thundering and I'm listening to Randy Romance sing this amazing song?
I honestly think I enjoy torturing my heart.
What about you?

I've officially succeeded in making someone else hate me. (:
Life really is beautiful isn't it?
All because I asked how often she really talks to him between ignoring him and chasing after Tanner and Jonathan.
Hehe.
I'm a horrible bitch.
Oh well.
It's true.

Did you know Alec's come to the conclusion that I'm depressed?
Wow.
Took him this long.
I wonder if he's mentally okay sometimes.

It wasn't the biting my hands that tipped him off.
Not even the fact that I'm always staring out the window in a blank stare.
No, the fact that I wouldn't tell him what's wrong for the first time tipped him off.
I refuse to tell him that Charlie won't talk to me.
I won't tell him that that upsets me so much it hurts.
I won't tell him that my sister pisses me off by throwing her boyfriend in my face and the fact that Charlie's actually speaking to her.
I can't tell him that cutting has actually crossed my mind more than once.
I can't tell him that when he asked me if I need a hug this morning I was going to say yes.
I can't say anything I want to say.
Hell make fun of me.
Or take it the wrong way.



Wow. Did I really just go on about Alec of all people?
I really must have something wrong in my brain.
I'm going away now.