From This Morning to Right Now

Just kidding.
That would take ages.
And we all know I'm not patient enough.

So let's run through it quickly shall we?
Got up.
Showered.
Dressed.
Walked to the bus stop.
Got on the bus.
Saw Charlie had his guitar when I entered school.
Frowned a lot all day.
Was a bitch to several people.
Helped the NJHS.
Thought a lot.
Went to lunch.
Had conversations that were probably really sexual.
Avoided being touched by Joshua.
Trojan Pride.
Was all depressed-like.
Told some kid to "piss off".
Home.
Talking to Linsey(:

Yeah.
My day pretty much sucked.
Big time.
It kind of really upsets me that we don't talk anymore.
In fact, it really hurts.
My heart feels like it will explode with the pressure of seeing you every day and never speaking to you.

Fuck you too Tayler.
I don't even know why I put up with this.
I was there when Josh dumped you.
I've been there to try to help you stop cutting.
But no.
You can't just give it up can you?
I'm not your best friend.
You're not mine.
We're two totally different people and I'm not sorry to say I'm sick of this.
You.
Use.
Me.
I feel like I'm here to make you feel better.
I'm so fucking done with you!
Bull shit you didn't try to start anything with her.
I was there.
I WAS RIGHT BEHIND YOU!
I could HEAR what you were saying to her.
Fuck you.

Gah.
I'm so done.
I think I'm beginning to miss the way things used to be.
This time last year.
When things were so close to flawless....
When you were my best friend.
When you talked to me.
When you actually tried.
Before the drugs.
Before the relationships.
Before I started to annoy you.
I miss the 7th grade.