They all have a problem. I swear they do.
I'm not even allowed to take the copy of Twilight that my mother bought to my room.
What the hell?
Where am I supposed to watch it then?
Surely not in the effing living room.
My father is in there too often.

Which reminds me.
He tried to hold a conversation with me today.
I kept my answers short and my voice clipped.
He got the point and went back out to throw horseshoes.
Good. I don't want to deal with him.

You know what I totally love?
That Maggie seems to be the only concerned for my well-being.
And she's right.
The smell of weed calms me. (:
That's pretty sad. Haha.

Hm.
If weed smells that good secondhand I wonder how it smells in person...?
Let's try it ;)

Alec almost touched me today.
And I was so not going to bite him.
GROSS!
Have you seen that kid's nails?
Dis.Gusting.

Cierra showed up during 4th period today.
Isn't that amazing?
Yes. Yes it is.

I didn't appreciate Joshua's comments today.
Our conversation went a bit like this:
Connor: I can tie the cherry stem in my mouth.
Me: So can I!
Joshua: Can Charlie? If he can't, you know opposites attract. *gestures to Charlie's seat then at me.*
Me: I'm going to beat you.
Josh: Where?
Me: I'm sooo going to hurt you Joshua. I really will.
Josh: That sounds naughty.
Me: Fuck you.
Josh: You would.

He's such a whore.
I demand to know why he says those things.
Those things about me and Charlie together.

"I don't even know why I talk to you, Joshua. You're always so mean to me."
He didn't have a response for that.
Good.
He's prettier with his mouth closed.

{Just wait until I'm gone and you have nothing to hold onto.]
I love how that's totally in the same song as, [You say 'I love you'. I say 'I'll love you forever.']
Pft.
I'm pretty sure I'll never hear THOSE words so I don't have to worry.

What if I wrote a song about you?
[it'd be totally awful}
But what if I really did?
What would I even say?
Haha.

I'm distracting you again.
I can tell.
It just took you like half an hour to answer me.

I threw his shit at him.
He was all, "Where's my hat?"
I threw it over his head.
I hope it landed in the mud.
Mother fucker.

My mother keeps calling him "Richard" to me instead of "Daddy"
It's like they're already signed papers.
Its like he's not my father anymore.
You're probably under the impression that I want that.
Not really.
Only if they really... you know...

My mom just told me I can't name my kid Mary or Sally.
Like that was even relevent to anything.
She just randomly shouted it at me.
As if I actually would.

The piano is beautiful in this song.
I wish I could play piano.
My fingers aren't made for it though.
They're not all long and tapering.

I just bent this spoon.
Stupid frozen solid ice cream.

I finally told Charlie about the girl in my dream today.
He was all, "Who is she and where can I find her?"
Of course.
Such a typical guy.
He didn't even ask how the rest of the dream went.

Connor told me he would talk to me tonight.
To make the nightmares go away.
I doubt he will.
And if he does, I doubt it will work.
Nothing could stop this nightmare...

She tells me Swifty's hair looks awful.
Says its good he's not making videos.
And logs off to go cry with her broken eyes. ;)

She must be able to sense 2 things.
My mental screaming.
AND my upset-ness.
Thank you (:

I'm done for now.
I think I want to sleep.
Good idea eh?
Yes.
I'm Canadian now.
Even though they have THE shittiest accents EVER.
Sorry if I offend.
Haha.