She Just Realized

She just realized that he's mad at all of us.
As though we all did something wrong.
She only realized because Timmy was here.
And when she tried to talk to my father, he wouldn't answer.
Timmy asked him where Mom went.
I whsipered, "As if he would know."
Amanda's the only one that heard...

My mother walked all the way to Bealton.
For all we know she's sitting on the side of the road somewhere.
Hurt and confused.
No one wants to call her.
I hope she's safe.

Serena and Amanda are going shopping today.
I desperately want to go.
I can't sit in the house.
But I'm not sure I can leave either.
My throat hurts so bad.
I don't think I'm running a fever though...
Let me check.
98.7.
I'm good.
Maybe I can go.
That makes me a little happy.
Only a little.

Okay.
I'm beginning to wonder something.
Is telling me that Connor and I would make a cute couple a hint?
That I should like, date Connor?
Gross.
I don't think I could do that.
>.<

Kayla walked me to class yesterday.
Haha.
People probably think I'm a lesbian.
Megan kinda hinted that she thought I was.
Whore.
It's just two girls holding hands.
and walking to class together.
Okay.
We DID look like lesbians.
That means nothing.

I need something weed scented.
I'm stressed out again.
This is a problem...

I'm going to shower now.
I've felt icky since I got up at 6.
I couldn't sleep.
Illness + Nightmares = Restlessness.