Another Random Worthless Blog

My room is totally... mostly.. clean.
Haha.
But it doesn't really matter.
Karen's working.
Which I don't get.
Aren't Karen's parents going to be home anyway?


I'm slightly confused by that blog.
It makes sense, but at the same time it doesn't.
You might have to explain it to me.

I made fun of you today.
I don't feel bad.
Sometimes is easy to be two-faced.

I'm not sure I want to go to youth tonight.
So tired.
My legs hurt so bad.
I keep thinking about things.
Maybe I should go.
Church is a release.
I can't take much more of this house.

What if I died?
Like, what if I randomly ended up in the hospital?
And I was on life support.
Would you sit at my side and talk to me, hoping I could hear you?
Or would you be like, "Why don't they just pull the plug?"
Sorry. I'm listening to a song that makes me think about that.

I definately wanted to punch Dead Cow Kid in the face.
He doesn't need to be talking about Courtney.
Especially so that people like Wanda hear it.
It wasn't his business to start with.
He needs to effing shut his mouth.

My fingers still hurt.
Stupid mental war.
The people I'm thinking about aren't making it easy either.
I almost hugged one today.
Thought it would be awkward and didn't.
I haven't hugged the other one in weeks it seems.

"What's she want you for now?"
"I don't know. To get rid of Kayli maybe."
"Don't get hurt."
"Wouldn't dream of it. I've learned."
"Good."

I woudnt go so far as to mention your name here.
But you know who you are.
I hate you.
Actually, hate isn't the right word.
I kind of just wish you would crawl into a hole.
And never show your face again.
Because the thought of seeing you everday is sickening.

Brush your hair dammit.
I really want to tell you.
But you'll be all offended and mad.
I won't mention it.

Some kid ran into me in gym today.
He was black, but I didn't really see him.
He was just a big dark blur.
The voice sounded like Keandre.
Or however the hell you spell his name.
But he wasn't on our end, and Jason showed concern.
Like he'd done it.
Jason's not dark enough.

Is it telemarketer season?
I swear like 3 called today.
So gross.
No one even answers when they call.
So why call?

River makes people hate hugs.
Aren't I lucky she's never hugged me?
Poor Connor.
Poor Charlie.
Poor all of those people that she thinks actually like her.
I feel bad for Bubba.
She actually likes him.
Haha.

I insulted Joshua today.
I told him he was the reason I didn't want to go to lunch.
He was offended I think.
Considering he didn't respond.

Is it wrong to want to yell at my mom?
Because she keeps saying she's heartbroken?
I mean, come on.
I get it.
Him not talking to you makes you depressed.
No need to ruin my day by saying it.
Yes.
I'm aware that's selfish.
But I can't fix her problems.

Gross.
Like I know how the effing World Of Warcraft thing got there.
I don't even know what it is.
Or where it came from.
I'm not a video game nerd.

I have to go.
I'm going to be sick.
Goodbye.