Old Times

Have you ever had something etched in your mind that's always reminded you of one person, even after you aren't friends with them anymore or after you and that person don't even discuss it anymore? Well, I have something like that.

When I first started hanging out with my best guy friend, he had a guitar in his hand a lot and we started singing songs he knew on his front porch after school because technically I wasn't supposed to be in his house. So for around two hours we would sit out in our spots and talk while he decided what song to play next, and when he picked one, he would begin playing and we would sing. I always sang quietly, because I don't like my voice, and he would always tell me to sing when I didn't.
Anyway. After I got in trouble in July, I had to stop going over there so our routine kind of fell apart and we stopped singing together. Even now that I can be there again, we dont sing.
What I'm trying to say is, every time I hear a song we used to sing together, it makes me slightly sad inside, but even sadder when I sing along, stop mid-verse, realizing I was singing alone... The songs pretty much haunt me.

So, yesterday (which was totally Tuesday), he picked up his guitar and began playing one of the songs that I don't even need guitar to sing- That's So You by The Rocket Summer. I hadn't heard that song on simply guitar in a very long time, but I knew I couldn't sing- it would make me sad. So I bit my lip and turned my head to his bedroom ceiling, trying to avoid the thoughts that were urgently clouding what I should be thinking about: the video project for creative writing that will probably never need to be turned in and all the time I was spending on it was going to waste. Anyway, after the first few lines of the song, he stopped singing but I continued thinking the lyrics for each note (or whatever you call it on guitar). Either he stopped playing or I stopped thinking because I don't remember finishing the song...

Anyone else have something like that?